My biggest takeaway from 2025
Escaping chronophobia, or the fear of time.
The older I get, the more my 'potentials' turn into 'lost potentials'. I stand at the precipice of each year with more corpses of unexplored timelines pressing down on my shoulders. Every day is a glaring reminder of my inefficiency. I cannot win against time. I'm not sure anyone can. This name, this project called 'Radi', I'll have to give it all away to time at the end.
This year, I tried to stop ruminating over alternatives. I focused on one or two things at a time. Appreciated that at least I am still alive, and able to go through this human experience. Instead of looking for a grand narrative to justify or glorify my presence, I just wanted to zoom in on each moment, to the best of my capacity — the way one looks at a glass object the moment it falls from their hands. Not running after time, but floating in time.
All the AI writing everywhere almost made me stop writing for myself. Hoping I can write more in 2026. I've been using the em dash since forever.
A song for the year: Phosphorescent - Song for Zula
A favorite new book: Venkatesh Rao - Be Slightly Evil
A favorite new movie: Good Fortune (2025)
